It’s Thursday, May 15th 2014.
Cross examination is on right now in Court, a very dramatic one if I may add.The SAN seems to be really good at what he does but I am not that drawn in. My thoughts are elsewhere…
I gave Lizzie an assignment to always ping me at 7pm to leave my room and go and read (ehen,i can give you assignment na,lol) but I doubt that she understood the import of what I meant. She thought I was joking, in fact, I can imagine Lizzie saying in her mind- “oh Frances the dramatic girl”.. I also probably thought that I was joking but as I sit here, I realize that I was dead serious.
Here’s how a typical day goes by for me- Wake up, pray, go to court, come back from court, surf the net when I am back and probably when in court too, sleep, try to read but not actually read, surf the net, pray and sleep again. I have been gliding on a spiritual high of recent but something’s missing. I went to re-read my goals for this year on E’s blog and something is terribly missing from my life…. DISCIPLINE!
I wake up at
5am in the morning, pray and according to my goals I should exercise but do I? No.
I set out for court by past 6 or past 7 depending on my lack of self discipline, ie, lazing around in bed and do I use the time to go through past questions that I even have on my phone? No, I surf the Web instead.
I go to the library and actually manage to fill my log book but do I read too? No, I use oshofree wifi.
I get back to the room, I eat a late lunch, ok, it’s healthy, veggies or boiled beans and stew but do I just sleep like that? No, I buy fried potato, yam and akara from the woman that fries it opposite school and wolf it down at past 10 at night.
I am on a budget, I am trying to save. I have a set amount of cash to use a day but do I adhere to it? No, I buy extra chin chin when I can. Yes,its just #50 but if I can’t manage the small one right now, how do I manage the large ones?
And that’s the way it’s been going for a while and I am terribly disturbed. There’s no way I will achieve my goals this way. I am disturbed enough to type this in court or I am just simply indisciplined enough to still use my phone when I should be listening to proceedings (if it counts as an excuse though, I am tired and court will rise soon) Either ways, whether I am typing in court because of those excuses above or indiscipline, the ish still remains that there’s a serious problem of indiscipline and lack of self control that i’ve got to tackle in my life…
And that’s where i’ve been getting it all wrong. I’ve been trying to tackle it on my own! *hands on head* How daft can one be? Proverbs 3:5-12 says (MSG) “Trust God from the bottom of your heart; don’t try to figure out everything on your own. Listen for God’s voice in everything you do, everywhere you go; he’s the one who will keep you on track. Don’t assume that you know it all. Run to God!…”
Notice the listen for God’s voice in EVERYTHING YOU DO?
Self control is a fruit of the spirit! The holy spirit already has it in abundance and it’s in me, I’ve only not been tapping into it.
I know how many times in a new week that I’ve sworn to wake up early, spend time with God, exercise, read… and end up doing none of those stuff in that order. I’ve just been relying on myself. You know, read a few quotes, a few blogs, look at some Weightloss pictures, motivate myself on monday and then fall off the wagon on tuesday. I make the plans and ask God to follow up, that’s terribly wrong.
I am going to lose all the weight the new way from now on. All weight including weight of indiscipline and procrastination too.
As soon as we became born again and received the holy spirit, these fruits are already in us, I am just going to be drawing from it. Self control!
I had to go on Google for bible passages on discipline, on saying no, on determination and Instead of only motivating myself, I am also going to memorize these verses in me, soak myself in them till it becomes a living word in me.
And if you are saying abegi, God dey for Weightloss and waking up early? Think no more, I started this on Thursday after yarning with the Holy spirit and He has been there for real! when I wake up and want to laze in the morning, this is what comes to mind – Proverbs 24:33(msg)“A nap here, a nap there, a day off here, a day off there,sit back, take it easy—do you know what comes next?Just this: You can look forward to a dirt-poor life,with poverty as your permanent houseguest!”
And for finances? Luke 16:10- “If you are faithful in little things, you will be faithful in large ones. But if you are dishonest in little things, you won’t be honest with greater responsibilities.”
And on Weightloss? There’s so much on it, I will just share my favourite, when temptation hits, this is what I use- Phil 3:19 -“whose end is destruction, whose god is their appetite, and whose glory is in their shame, who set their minds on earthly things.”
So when my kind judge offers us soft drinks and meat pie after court proceedings, I will say no and repeat and repeat that my appetite isn’t my god.
Lord, last week was worship to you on my blog. This week it’s discipline for me and everyone that cares to join me on my blog. I am trusting you Lord, even as we do things your way and not the inspirational quotes only way, let your words come alive in our hearts.
Holy spirit, I trust you, I really trust you that from here on out, things are going to be different. Please, let things be different from today for us. Let not the issue of in discipline act as a hindrance to the goals you have laid in our hearts. Let us not wake up in December to realize that the year had gone to naught just because we couldn’t wake up early enough-just because of sleep.
Help us to realize like Paul did that all things maybe needful but not all things are beneficial.
I am going to lose the remaining weight your way this time around, not my way. I am going to set out to read when I plan to because I will do it with you in me and not me in myself.
You told me from the mouth of your servant Pastor Ezekiel Atang to settle the matter of discipline in my life in singlehood and I am ready to start right now by your grace.
Please help us all Lord, amen.
I believe this will be a journey worth going on.. kai! I see myself writing a book on discipline done God’s way after conquering this. Hehe, I kid? No, I am not kidding, God always drops an idea in us for a reason and the book thing just dropped as I wrote. Either ways, loves lets’s do this, let’s conquer indiscipline God’s way. Mandisa’s Conqueror is my theme song for this, you can check it out.
And uhm, I think I need an accountability partner, Lizzie nor gree so help me out anyone? Holla and I will send you my pin to add me up so we will always be in touch. Be ready sha o, I need someone that will always, always hound me.
And oh for the Weightloss peeps like me, I found a christian blog on weightloss- http://www.takebackyourtemple.com/category/scriptures/weight-loss-scriptures/
Thank me later.
And oh again, here’s a pic I picmixed yesterday.
Tis the same gown in both pictures and I’ve even had to give it to obioma tailor to slim fit it twice already…Its hard to imagine that I was that big but it was an awesome encouragement to look back at where I was coming from. I cant stop now.
#it MUST end in PRAISE.
We MUST finish the race we started. 1cor 9:4
Happy New Week loves and remember- ” Proverbs 25:28- “A person without self-control is like a city broken down without walls”